I do intend to get this blog back up to weekly but over the last few weeks I’ve been struggling with my health, combined with starting a second job and other things I simply didn’t have the motivation to post.
This week things have been happening, however, and I am pleased to say I finally have my next GIC appointment. But the first thing that happened, late last week, was sorting my DBS for my Mental Health Nursing course. Unlike the 6 months that my DBS took for my Care Worker job, my DBS on this occasion took just a day to process. I can highly recommend anyone who needs to get a DBS check, takes advantage of the online service that is offered. It has two benefits, firstly saves ever having to re-apply, but also means future employers simply make a check against the online service and bingo – your DBS cleared.
With that done, and needing to give at least a months notice, and an unconditional offer in my pocket, I handed in my notice at the University. This was a big and anxious moment, making a commitment like that, even with future plans sorted, is still a nervy experience.
Then today I phoned up Northampton Gender Clinic, to be told I couldn’t be put through. They have a strange policy now that you must leave a message and ask them to call you back. Not sure of the reasoning behind this but does mean you may get calls at times that are inconvenient to you. In my case I was at work when the call arrive but was able to disappear into a room to speak in private.
It turned out, due to a messup with Porterbrook, who hadn’t sent my record properly, they hadn’t got me in the right place in the queue, but as soon as she corrected the error she realised I was actually at the front of the queue, having just been doing appointments at around the time I was referred.
Looking through the calender she was then able to offer me an appointment far sooner than expected, as they’d had a cancellation, so I ended up with an appointment on 24th November. This date is more or less where I’d hoped to get as a best case scenario when I last spoke to them, so takes a step closer to finally getting surgery.
You’d think after all this good news, I’d actually be pretty happy, but I’m currently struggling with tiredness, lethargy, low energy and as a result, I haven’t felt like celebrating. It’s sad that I can’t even motivate a proper smile, but I guess on the other side it really does show how even when things are going well a good situation can still not be enough to lift us.
Brains, hormones, illness and mental health problems are all fickle beasts, I’m going to see the GP tomorrow to see if we can figure why I’m struggling with tiredness and really not looking forward to it. I guess ultimately I’m scared of conversations that might turn into mental health discussions, this despite my future career!!
Anyway there’s a catchup, it’s nice to have things falling into place, just wish I wasn’t tired and low on energy to enjoy it more!!
The Hormonal Woman 